Tired from Expectations

Hanna Marie Lei
I really am tired from everyones expectations for me. No, I don't mean that I'm tired of, literally I'm tired from trying to do everything that people expect of me. I already have my own goals even though I'm trying to get rid of them. I've talked about how just my goals are overwhelming, and then when you throw in everyone else's goals for me, its too much. I try and fit my goals and their expectations together into one package and then, boom even more plans get added on. 

If you remember when I blogged about building a tower, you might have realized that I was taking an engineering class, and as of now I completely regret that class. It was hard enough when my parents decided that I should become an engineer, constantly bringing it up and such but now even my boyfriend's family thinks its a great idea. His mother actually told me she "hopes I decide to become an engineer so I can support him".

 On the one had I love that she sees me being around that far ahead, but becoming an engineer would be a ton of work. The degree requires significantly more credit hours than most, and the classes aren't easy at all. I don't even want to be in college, school is so stressful. 

The other expectation that really gets to me is family obligations. Don't get me wrong, I love my extended family but I can't go to everything. It seems like I never do enough for them. When I go to things, they aren't happy and I don't have fun but when I don't go, I hurt someones feelings. Actually I got a text saying "thanks a lot".

Don't get me wrong, I think its great that everyone wants me to be successful and hang around me, but it gets to be too much. 
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